I haven’t wrote anything on this blog anymore mostly because my journey is over in a way, but also because I was lazy to do so to be honest (and also because it isn’t always easy to go over this again).
I am more active here : on my cooking blog (pour ceux qui ne le savaient pas!) !
What did 2013-2014 look like ?
First : a lot of study. My masters was stressful, because no one knew what we had to do (it had just been reformed) ; because we had to take this national exam ; because it was complicated anyway. And apart from that a lot of my time was also taken by me tutoring 4 kids !
Second : a lot of nostalgia. It’s hard to leave a life you enjoyed ; it’s hard to not be with the amazing people you met over the year ; it’s hard to accept that it’s over and you will never be given this back.
Third : a lot of travel planning. Scotland, Poland, USA, Berlin, Paris… I’ll go over this later.
Fourth : some successful events happened… 🙂
The year went by super fast because I always had something to look for : our first break was in October where I got to see my grandparents and the rest of the family again. The second thing was my birthday and Christmas, followed by my amazing trip to Scotland with my favorite British people. I had missed them so much already. I’m still mad flight tickets aren’t cheaper so I could get to see them more than once a year. Emma welcomed me in Edinburgh and then we took the train to Glasgow where Jyoti and Matt met up with us. They know how grateful I am that they all took the time to come at the same moment as me. It was short but perfect, because we were finally back together, and to be honest it didn’t feel that it had been so long already.
And then February arrived. I had spent almost every week since September looking for a way to go back to the States. I knew I could have my exams until the beginning of July and I also knew that I couldn’t afford to buy tickets for the summer. So, one night, I just decided I would go by the end of May until mid-June. I didn’t know when my classes were really ended nor when the national oral exams were beginning, but I figured that I’d be lucky and things would work out. They did.
So that was what I was looking for the most throughout the second semester. And I even get to travel more since my family decided it was time for us to go back to Poland this year ! So yay, more travelling and most of all an amazing week with my family.
I passed my school exams easily, and hoped on a plane literally 18 hours after my last day in class.
I now realize that going back to the States was essential to me. It helped turning the page I guess. It was a way to see that my friends were still over there, some things had changed, some things were the same, but most of all it helped me realize that even if my life there was over, it didn’t mean that it was erased (if that makes any sense)…
I spent some days in Albany, chilling for the main part, spending time with some of my friends, running into people I didn’t think I would see again, singing at the Hudson River Coffee House as usual, doing a photoshoot with Chanté and Andy, as usual…
It was sweet. Really. I feel blessed for meeting the people I met during my stay over there and that we stayed in touch.
It was hard to leave Albany again, probably because it brought back all the memories of the year before. Probably because there’s few chances I’m ever going back there again. Probably because I knew I’d miss these people very quickly.
I spent a couple of days in New Paltz and Poughkeepsie, in NY State where I saw Sam and Kelly. A lot of hiking / bike riding. Lovely friends and lovely weather. I was the happiest.
Kelly went with me in NYC for a while which was really cool because we hadn’t had the chance to do so the year before. I spent a few days with a friend from Queens as well. Getting the New York experience. A lot of walking and a lot of happy moments.
Obviously I went to visit Rick and Trish. Shortest stay ever. It felt so strange to be with them for such a short moment but it was perfect, as usual. Thanks to them I got to see the whole family on Saturday : again, you will understand that they are probably the sweetest people on Earth.
Did a lot of shopping (clothes, BOOKS, apple devices (!!), cooking stuff…) : I knew I hadn’t work during the year for nothing 😉
I stopped by DC to meet up with a friend. It is funny because we were never really close the year before, but we kept in touch from time to time, and she invited me to stay over for a night. It was lovely and that’s how you get to see the magic of your travelling : you meet people through your journeys that will always have an open door for you even if you don’t talk every day.
I walked around NYC one more day before flying back home. I’m in love with this city and what it represents. It’s funny how I miss being there all the time although I know I would never go and live there. But there is something magical about it, and the more time I spent in New York City, the more I love it…
People know I’ll be back as soon as I can. It’s more than a love story between this country and me. It is part of me now 🙂
I am thankful for all my friends and all of them who made this journey possible, who welcomed me, who always make me feel like I’m home.
I came back home after that : I was taking my exams 2 weeks after. I had zero motivation to study (we already had been studying the materials from the beginning of April until the end of May). I was jet lagged and sad to be back home. But I tried, and apparently it worked. Also I really need to say that being back was made easier because most of my friends were back in our hometown and we got to spend tons of time together. Then, I went to Nantes to take the exam, so I got to visit a city of France I didn’t know, and then I headed to Paris, where, a few days after, I learned that I passed.
That was it, I had passed. I was going to be a teacher. I didn’t realize what it meant until the first day of work I think. But it was done, and it was great, and I got to celebrate it over the whole summer.
After that, I went to Berlin, where I met up with Daniya. Albany friendships are amazing, I’m telling you. It didn’t felt like we hadn’t seen each other for a year, but it was just a little weird to meet up in a city we both didn’t know and whose language none of us spoke. A lot of walking, trying to catch up on our lives, a lot of happy moments. Only happy moments.
Summer went by like this : I learnt where I was sent to teach (you don’t get to chose anything in France, but at least you are guaranteed a job…) which wasn’t far from home, I learnt which grades I’d be teaching (the two first grades of middle school), I tried to get some things ready for September, but mostly I got to relax and to travel again (Crete, the Greek Island with the family!).
September came quite fast. I have been teaching now for over 3 weeks. It is only 9 hours per week since I’m still in school to finish my masters (basically I have finals to pass and a dissertation to write and present in May). I’ll be honest, I love my job and I hate my time in school because, once again, no one knows what we are supposed to do since it’s the first year it is done this way. We are losing a lot of time and energy with the administration, but it is fine. Because it is only one more year and then I’ll get to be a full time teacher !
Teaching is great but I’m exhausted and always worried about them not learning properly ; I have to deal with dyslexia every day and it’s hard when you have never been told how to do so ; I have to deal with them being just kids (so many
dumb questions !) and being hilarious sometimes but not always encline to work, etc etc etc. But I am having so much fun (except when grading papers and realizing that they don’t work enough and I cannot do anything but to put a bad grade…) and my supervisor is quite happy with how I’m handling them. So yes, success.
A new life is beginning, that’s it.